wow, so it's been forever... where to start? umm... I moved this week, well, technically I guess it was last week... or both. I just checked everyone's blog sites from rock belfast.. and it made me miss NI and everyone there so much. I can't wait to see everyone again... even though it won't be for months.... I'm working 2 jobs at the moment... one is at a bookstore, and I absolutely love it. Everyone who works there is so great. I can't wait for snow. If it's gonna be cold, we might as well have snow. We should at least have something to be happy about when it's cold : ) .
Why do you think it's so hard for us (humans) to let go of the notion that we need "stuff" ? I know some of it is for enjoyment or entertainment, but it feels like we let it control our lives. I'm doing something interesting for lent this year. and, I hope it'll help change me. I'm not going to spend any money on anything other than what I need,... basically, no extras.... just food,shampoo, soap, etc... and bills. No clothes buying, no books, magazines, music, whatever... nothing extra. for forty days, which should also make me be creative, because I won't be doing anything that costs money, such as going to the movies... I guess if people want to hang out with me we'll have to do stuff that is free. personally I usually have more fun anyways,... cause you actually get to hang out that way.
I think we are always trying to rationalize what God wants us to do, and trying to lessen what he wants us to give up. We dismiss things so easily. And it really disturbs me every time I realize I actually care about having certain things, (like nice things- and I don't even usually take it over-board.) Because I realize that I too am caught up in this whole society obsessed with stuff and things, and how good they are, and what defines our status in life. And it's all a bunch of crap. None of this (all our "stuff") defines who we are or what our status is... we are people... simple as that, who all have basically the same needs, and we are caught up in some show making fools of ourselves to God because we think otherwise. and we insist on thinking otherwise and on living that way and it gets us nowhere. This explains much of life.
