Autumn Leaves

I was walking around today, and I couldn't help but wonder how something dying could be so beautiful. Do you think our lives are kind of like that? like the leaves? They change from season to season, but autumn leaves..... wow. If our lives are lived right do they show this hidden brilliance right before they're over? Is it as though in an instant the lives we've lived and the things we've done make more sense, point to something beautiful? to God? Maybe some sort of wisdom is revealed in that moment that all the other things clogging our lives up before kept hidden. maybe it's then when we begin to realize what this whole life thing was really all about.
In the last book of the chronicles of Narnia, C.S. Lewis writes that the reason we found certain things joyful, certain things beautiful, etc... in this life, in this world, is because those things or moments were bits or small reflections of heaven- of real reality...
The only reason there is any beauty in this world, the only reason there is any joy, any good, is because it came from God, reflects to God, speaks of God...whether we are always conscious of it or not.
The thought is completely overwhelming. To know that the things we find beautiful and breathtaking are only in small comparison.....

I was riding the bus today. bus people are interesting. you meet all types, I'm shy, so I don't say much unless spoken to, but sometimes the bits of conversation you hear are interesting. Today, one lady was talki;ng about God, and how we'll understand everything when we get to heaven. I know that's the typical view, and I'm not arguing against it. But I think it's more that when we see God, we'll realize what it was all about. I'm not sure we'll even realize everything, (as we think of it) maybe it will be everything falling into place because God is there and we are there with Him. Maybe realizing everything will be about realizing that it was never the knowledge itself that we really wanted. We don't need to know everything. By knowing God, we do know everything. Maybe we just never thought about it like that while we were here, stuck on this earth.